[RANK] LCP [NAME] Z X YIO
[AGE] 21
[Date Of Birth] 091288
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Seems like thing ain't solve despite years of disputes...
My mum told me to help out my dad at his work place during the holidays...But why must I help? My family problems seems to revolve around me only...I think it's because I am the only son...At the end of the day, he's paying me with his own $$$ and so wat's the point...He kinda make a loss rite...is like his own son wants salary from him...
So the best is, I find jobs outside myself...Can get more pay and I bet my dad wont give me like at least $1000 a month or something...
Plus I can experience more stuff outside...Coz i am sure my dad wont scold me for something minor...Only working for others will you get to know more through scolding...etc.
My exam is next week...I am so doom...So lost...I don know what to do...So many things to do...
I still have 7 analysis work which is already date due...The rest of the work I already done it...
I fail my history test...43/100...I am sure with my daily work, I wont fail...but the result wont be brilliant...
My harmony Portfolio haven even hand up yet...It's date due on Thursday...
I must practically go down to my teacher' sch which is in Yishun to hand in...But I cant remember where is that damn place.
Now, I wanna work...But where do I find a work related to my studies?
I have not been performing for others lately...I did perform for others before...But I don get paid...SO it's kinda like what's the point...
Everybody says just get experience...Coz with experience, in future can get job easily and can earn more but the thing is when I am getting experience, others outside are doing the same...so chances are that people outside looking for job next time is very high but chances of getting the job is low...
Isn't it stupid...I wanna tutor school...But where do I find the link...Obviously I cant ask Tan...It never work in such a case...and I seriously need $$$ now...where do I find them. If I work for others, I cant practice anytime i like...Coz I ain't no boss...But if I am doing something which is related to my studies, Den I can be more flexible and i can practice...And it's teaching...It doesnt require you to work 8am-5pm daily...
My mum keeps complaining about me not working...The way she say as though is easy to find a job...But i wan a job which is more flexible...Like teaching...If i am in Poly, I will work...I wont mind 8am-5pm. But I am a musician...I need to practice daily...I cant survive without practicing...my skills will rust...
My mum just don get it and she keeps complaining...My brother is barely doing anything since he graduated...he only spend all the $$$ on himself whereas I use my $1000+ pay last year to pay for my school fees and books...
Now i have barely any $$$ in my expenses account...
How do I even survive this far man...I don wanna leech on my parents $$$...
Music ain't easy...you got to constantly buy scores to play&to perform if there's a chance...to keep for upcoming exams...and such scores are hard to find...Everything must be online.
And it's X...I have not been asking my parents $$$ for such stuff...i just basically borrow everything from teacher...which i practically get scolded just coz she thinks that I am lazy in finding my own stuff...
As though I don wanna find my own scores like that...sometimes wanna buy also don kw what suits me best...
And that even if i tell her my family situation, as if she cares...WTF...
I am no fantastic percussion...But i am willing to work hard...But work very hard...still where do i find $$$ currently to at least sustain my survival rate in this Country...
My mum told me to sign bond with the SAF...SO what's the point...serve the nation next time...No way...I am a musician...I wanna perform for people & to earn $$$...Not to serve them inside playing with the Central Band...I don wan my music to be restricted for many years in the army...I wanna do something beneficial to myself and others...i wanna have my own life...and not stick or leech on someone though they can give regular pay...SO WHAT...I want life and i wanna do what I like...
I study music not to serve the army for years...I study music for passion...To perform to teach...But where do I ever get Lobang to do all this...Lobang must find through ownself...but where to I start?
I don know what to do...Can someone help me out?
I need God's help...
Everlasting Love
Dear...Even if you read my post on this, Don try to help me out Coz i don wanna spend your $$$ and I wanna do something for myself...Even if it means rotting, I will have to go through this myself...We just started this wonderful journey...I don wanna let our own problems shatter our journey...I love you...
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