[RANK] LCP [NAME] Z X YIO
[AGE] 21
[Date Of Birth] 091288
[NSF]
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Just finish PS lesson at 11.15am. Today lesson was like shit...scales cant even play correctly. Levenson not musical at all (what I felt), totally screw up. Not up to Angeline's requirement. I practice snare like hell yesterday. Today not even playing the same as yesterday. OMG WHAT"S WRONG WITH ME...SEBASTIAN PLEASE WAKE UP. PLEASE PUSH YOURSELF LIKE THERE"S NO TOMORROW...
So disappointed in myself. I everbody are positive so that they can improve. Today then i realise that i use negative ways to improve. Thanks Angeline...for telling me.
Haiz...wat the hell. Doing so badly for her. I don wan to show a piece of shit to teacher. SHe came all the way from home...etc but i played crap...
I am so tired & i cant think of anything now. HOPELESS ME...
SO many things to do but so little time. So many problems but left unsolve.
I WANNA BE AS GREAT AS ANY GREAT COMPOSER...
No doubt when I go back to OP, I am so much better than them (which is what they think) but in fact I am really far from the word good.
Sorry Angeline and Jonathan Fox. I didnt doubt your judgement about me that I am good to be in NAFA. But I just felt that I am not good enough. I need to WORK THOUSAND TIMES HARDER.
Thanks Angeline for always helping me and understanding me.
I really didnt doubt the 2 of you or wat so eva. I just felt that i need to buck up.
But the fact is what is call good. IF a person is good, den what are the musicians called in Europe and Asia. SUPER ULTRA MARVELLOUS FANTASTIC GORGEOUSly...etc GOOD...
Haiz...I cant be compared with anyone. Too lousy. Sebast please push during this 3 days...
And that today then I realise that my own family problems have affected my school life and that it is doing me harm...why is this stupid family problem still not solve since sec 1. It's the 6th year already...haiz...
I don want Angeline to come and talk to me about how to go about doing things...It's nice that she help but it's like she's here to teach not to listen to my stupid problems that are unsolve.
Angeline told Richard and ZY ( they happen to be there) that no one shall be in the room when someone is practicing. She says that everybody needs quality time.
SOMEONE SOMEONE said OK...But when i saw him outside perc room, he scolded me. I didnt give excuse. My excuse was I think I am not up to any adjudicators standard. I am far from at least playing it well...THAT IS MY EXCUSE...Angeline said it's an excuse but does it sounds like an excuse?
I hate to be rude or watsoeva to ask someone to get out of the room when I am prac or what coz the room belongs to us...A WHOLE...Percussion Studio.
I don give excuse...What's excuse and what's reason to you.
EXCUSE--->I woke up late...But it can be a reason also. WHy must everything people say be excuse. Well...go ahead and think that everything I say is excuse.
I had enough of such nonsensical stuff in school. People biatching about someone when that someone did nothing wrong...etc
WoW...how stupid can this be...Biatch about people if they really do it. But don start creating or REEDITING people's original story to become a more DRAMATIC story which literally gives everyone a bad impression of that person.
Well...if it's fun den I have got nothing to say.
You guys are my seniors. I really feel insecure that is why I don eat with you guys. i don like to pretend and act in front of people. It's just not me. If I am not happy with someone at the moment, I will not go out with that person or watsoeva...(will not go out with him/her that kinda thing)
I don like to eat with the person I don like or watsoeva just because he is my friend or mates or watsoeva.
It doesnt mean that all the time I don eat with you guys means I dislike someone or watsoeva.
Just that sometimes me and my friends or classmates already plan before hand to eat together.
I HATE HYPOCRITES AND PEOPLE ACTING. DON't LIKE DEN DON't LIKE. Dont pretend to act and be nice and den at the back BIATCH about people.
Don like it, SHOOT IT INTO THE FACE...SO what if people cant take it. At least they know the very fact that you are not a hypocrite...
Don be like some people...such a hypocrite and such an ass...
well...such people, get out of everyone's life.
I cant believe I said so much...
But it's true that such things are going on.
Friends and people out there, becareful. The world seems to be a marvellous magnificent place. But in fact within each part of the Earth, there are lots of problems going on.
Aliens don attack earth lar...the problems can kill...there's no immunity to it.
Going off now...Blog tonight...
Demonic Sebastian
Sad & depress
missing you dearly.
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